From the wall u see a movement ....an animal approaching....silently it stop ...watches u as it slinks ever so closer with each padded step ... Stay calm ...u tell ur self .. There is nothing to fear ..
But suddenly panic seizes u in a death grip ...squeezing the breath out of u and turn ur knees to Jell-O ... Your heart starts slam-dancing inside of ur chest ..your mouth turns to cotton ...and BAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!! U smash the little spider that to u look gigantic ... Ridiculous right??? How can anyone experience so much fear at the sight of such small animal...Well I am ... i can not stand the little creatures like spiders... what if they r poisonous ??? Anyhow .. i do have a phobia..... Vermiphobia .... the fear of maggots .... ughhhh sometimes i cannot eat rice ...cause it looks like little maggots ... or spagetti cause it looks like a family of worms ... uggghhhhh again ....
this is what really triggered it ... Like i was living in sweden and i lived in an apartment on second floor which was the top floor ... and i had a balcony . So one day it was a beautiful spring day and the sun was shining and i woke up really in a good mood and made some coffey ... and since it was such beautiful morning i wanted to catch some sun so i desided to go out on my patio with my coffey and enjoy the sun for a min ... So i open the balcony and im barefoot and go out and i step into something soft and nasty and the sound i heard was nasty like a fartlike sound hahahahahaha So anyway i look down and all this maggots is all over my foot !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I ...i trew my coffey cup which broke on the patio floor ..... screamd my lungs out ...and people thought i was getting stabbed or murdered and they all look up and i am crying ...and screaming and see i had stepped in a dead birds body .... I shake off the maggots screaming still ..just panicking ...thinking they will start eating off of me ... so i run in the bathroom and scrub my feets under water call my mom thats a nurse and ask if the maggots can crawl under the toe nails and start eating off of u ... and shes like noooo they eat dead meat bla bla bla bla .... and so anyway after that i decided i will be cremated when i die ... that is soooooooo nasty . Not that i will be aware of my body when im dead ...or maby i will ...who knows .. but i aint going to be some lunch buffet for the maggots ... Soooo so grosse ... I have a friend that has written paper to donate his body to the Body Farm ...Its like they when ur dead they put u in a trunk of the car and see ..study and regester like every hour like how ur body compose and the flies lay egg and all that nasty shit ... or in the woods ..or they put u in water tank or ..different scenarios to see what will happend so that when murders do occur they know how long u been dead and so on ... no hell no i couldnt do that ...I will be cremated ...and thats that ...
Then i also has this friend on fbook ...now hes from Africa and he use to always tell me he had this family of worms living in his stommach and that he tried to take medecin and many dies and he poop em out and sometimes has to pull em out hahahahahahaha sooooo grosse ... but it wont die entierly and so the one left makes babies or whatever and he is always full of worms and this grossed me out so thats why i have a hard time eating spagetti .... it looks like a family of worms .... So ...yeah ... i love potatoes ...hahahahahahahaha my favorite ... juss saying ...
Thursday, October 31, 2013
Letter to the future
So I desided to send my self some emails to the future ... One email I sent to October 2014 forgot the date lol ...and one I sent to year 2016 December 30th my bday . It will be very interesting to see if they will pop up ... he he ...and also how ur life look like in the future and what u were thinking in the past .. If u would like to send ur self some emails to the future u can go here http://www.futureme.org/ Say hello to ur self in the future ....he he
Lucid Dream
Hello ...good eavning ... I just got home and its after midnight ...bed time... which made me thing of Lucid dreams ....
Lucid dreaming is awareness of the fact that you are dreaming.... and this awareness can range from very faint recognition of the fact ... to something as momentous as a broadening of awareness beyond what has ever been experienced even in waking life.
Lucid dreams usually occur while a person is in the middle of a regular dream and suddenly realizes that they are dreaming.... Once you realize this... you have the ability to control your dreams...which is pretty much the most essential part of lucid dreaming....
Lucid dreaming is helpful for people who frequently experience nightmares as it gives them a chance to take control of their dreams.... thats what I used to have for years and years ..once I learned how to control my dreams my world changed ... everything i see... feel.. taste... hear and smell can sometimes be as authentic as reality.....
Lucid dreaming is awareness of the fact that you are dreaming.... and this awareness can range from very faint recognition of the fact ... to something as momentous as a broadening of awareness beyond what has ever been experienced even in waking life.
Lucid dreams usually occur while a person is in the middle of a regular dream and suddenly realizes that they are dreaming.... Once you realize this... you have the ability to control your dreams...which is pretty much the most essential part of lucid dreaming....
Lucid dreaming is helpful for people who frequently experience nightmares as it gives them a chance to take control of their dreams.... thats what I used to have for years and years ..once I learned how to control my dreams my world changed ... everything i see... feel.. taste... hear and smell can sometimes be as authentic as reality.....
With conscious control.... you can then explore your private dreamscape as if it were a virtual reality world.... Sounds cool???? You have no idea...
A fully lucid dream is rich and detailed .... sometimes with even greater awareness than you have right now... like 360-degree vision or existing in two places at the same time...
Because it all takes places in your mind... the dream world has no physical laws...
Anything you can conceive of comes true..... You can control your dreams and warp Matrix like Neo... fly over cities like Ironman.... slow down time Inception-style... have sex with anyone... fight like a ninja....In fact..... the possibilities of lucid dreaming are limitless...
The hit movie Inception has popularized lucid dreaming and given us new triggers for our night-time musings - from lucid dreams-within-dreams to working with subconsciously-driven dream figures....
The movie was written and directed by a real life lucid dreamer..... Chris Nolan...
Often when im lucid,... i choose to exit the dream scene and find somewhere new to explore...
I like to summon up scenes of nature ... step into them via a dream door or simply teleport there...
So when I go to bed I always say ...fasten ur bed belt cause u going for a ride ...he he ...gnite ..