Phobias

From the wall u see a movement ....an animal approaching....silently it stop ...watches u as it slinks ever so closer with each padded step ... Stay calm ...u tell ur self .. There is nothing to fear ..
But suddenly panic seizes u in a death grip ...squeezing the breath out of u and turn ur knees to Jell-O ... Your heart starts slam-dancing inside of ur chest ..your mouth turns to cotton ...and BAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!! U smash the little spider that to u look gigantic ... Ridiculous right??? How can anyone experience so much fear at the sight of such small animal...Well I am ... i can not stand the little creatures like spiders...  what if they r poisonous ??? Anyhow .. i do have a phobia..... Vermiphobia .... the fear of maggots .... ughhhh sometimes i cannot eat rice ...cause it looks like little maggots ... or spagetti cause it looks like a family of worms ... uggghhhhh again ....
this is what really triggered it ... Like i was living in sweden and i lived in an apartment on second floor which was the top floor ... and i had a balcony . So one day it was a beautiful spring day and the sun was shining and i woke up really in a good mood and made some coffey ... and since it was such beautiful morning i wanted to catch some sun so i desided to go out on my patio with my coffey and enjoy the sun for a min ... So i open the balcony and im barefoot and go out and i step into something soft and nasty and the sound i heard was nasty like a fartlike sound hahahahahaha So anyway i look down and all this maggots is all over my foot !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I ...i trew my coffey cup which broke on the patio floor ..... screamd my lungs out ...and people thought i was getting stabbed or murdered and they all look up and i am crying ...and screaming and see i had stepped in a dead birds body .... I shake off the maggots screaming still ..just panicking ...thinking they will start eating off of me ... so i run in the bathroom and scrub my feets under water call my mom thats a nurse and  ask if the maggots can crawl under the toe nails and start eating off of u ... and shes like noooo they eat dead meat bla bla bla bla .... and so anyway after that i decided i will be cremated when i die ... that is soooooooo nasty . Not that i will be aware of my body when im dead ...or maby i will ...who knows .. but i aint going to be some lunch buffet for the maggots ... Soooo so grosse ... I have a friend that has written paper to donate his body to the Body  Farm ...Its like they when ur dead they put u in a trunk of the car and see ..study and regester like every hour like how ur body compose and the flies lay egg and all that nasty shit ... or in the woods ..or they put u in water tank or ..different scenarios to see what will happend so that when murders do occur they know how long u been dead and so on ... no hell no i couldnt do that ...I will be cremated ...and thats that ...
Then i also has this friend on fbook ...now hes from Africa and he use to always tell me he had this family of worms living in his stommach and that he tried to take medecin and many dies and he poop em out and sometimes has to pull em out hahahahahahaha sooooo grosse ... but it wont die entierly and so the one left makes babies or whatever and he is always full of worms and this grossed me out so thats why i have a hard time eating spagetti .... it looks like a family of worms .... So ...yeah ... i love potatoes ...hahahahahahahaha my favorite ... juss saying ...