Dentists uggghhh

I had a dental appointment this morning for a filling .....well I came there and then I started crying ..litterly ...I was soooo scared and my blood pressure was out of the roof ... I was sooo upset ...so my dentist was like ...okay lets sit down and talk ...whats going on ...and I explaind ..he knew I was scared but not this scared ....I felt kinda stupid ..like a big baby ...but I got confidence in his competence I was just scared cause I had bad experience in the past ... so he said lets begin small so I can get used to the drill and the sound and all that ...omg it was like torture .... one step at the time ... I gotto do 5 fillings ... I thought I was gonna die ...I was just balling ...hahahahahah after I went and bought my self a winter jacket and some beers ..lol next appointment is 17 of January ....uggghhhhhhhhh I dunno how im gonna make it ... when I last visited the dentist ...another one ....he drilled the drill straight through my chin and after that I got fear of dentists ...